Hello and Welcome to CorlissTriedIt,
My name is Tabi though I like going by Corliss on Social media and pretty much everything online. I acknowledge that I hide myself by preferring to be addressed as Corliss. I feel that sharing with you my name will help me in completing my journey in breaking free from my shy shell while keeping to my beliefs in being completely open and honest with you.
Thank you for taking an interest in me; here is a little about my back story:
I believe i am a compulsive overeater, i have not seen a doctor about it but i have always been hungry, always wanting of food and i would give in to my wants. I quickly eat my foods, never taking the time to savor it, i always want the food, all of it and more of it. I used to take pride that i could eat more than my father and keep up with/ out eat all my guy friends. I would never pass up an opportunity to eat and indulged in any free foods or buffets. I would constantly eat and never feel full until the very last moment where my body decided that i have had to much to eat. usually within 30-40 minutes the feeling would pass and i would want more food. i would hide food in my room, or pocket anything that i would know i would want later but would fear might not be available at a later time. So i usually kept plastic bags or containers in a backpack that i took everywhere with me. Whenever i was sad or depressed the only way to cheer me up was giving me sweets, candies, and deserts. Sometimes i would get angry with myself for my bad eating and i would punish myself by literally smashing or pushing cupcakes into my mouth and face in hopes that i would just choke on it.
I started my weight loss journey 5 years ago (2010) when i was 25years old, 5’4 and 180lbs-190lbs. My life began to fall apart in many different ways, i was unhappy with myself, pushing away my loved ones, and on the verge of accidentally ruining my relationship with my now husband . A fire was lit under my arse and i had to over come all my fears. Started off trying to lose weight without researching it properly and started with the with starving myself which is never the correct way to go. i then did other dumb decisions by only eating top roman and then following whichever food plan was popular at the time. There was a lot of instances where i would return to starvation until i finally decided i would take the time and research how to properly lose weight and eat healthy (by this time i was very fatigued and always hungry). Through my research i went paleo for 6 months but i was not happy with some of the food restrictions and that i had to spend more on specialty items. I switched over to clean eating which i still follow 90% of the time and found carb cycling to help surpass my plateaus but it interfered with social occasions that always seemed to be on my low carb days. Currently. i am following IIFYM as a clean eater and loving it.
I had tried out “refeed days” witchout properly researching on how they should be done. I found myself easily eating 2,000 -3,000 calories in just a few minutes and wanting more food. I would feeling guilty for losing control and wanting to find a way to purge what i had just done, but i would not follow through in fear that i would like what had happened and accidentally get in the habit of binge eating and purging.
I found a way to control my Compulsive Overeating by sticking to a strict schedule on when to eat and to stop eating. I have mentally set in stone to not go over the amount of calories that i need in order to achieve my goals and trained my body to stop wanting food after i eat dinner. When i am offered foods I have become comfortable with politely declining the food at the moment and suggest that i take some home to eat later. As for my meals i make for myself; I have become obsessed with that eating meals with poverty macros or high volume foods. They are a great way to deal with my wanting to eat food constantly; i get to eat a very large quantity of foods for minimal calories and i don’t feel guilty at all. Zucchini is my best friend, it has been making all my meals super filling and sometimes to the point where i don’t think i cannot eat anymore which is very rare for me.
Anyways…. i have been working on coming out of my shy shell and grow a back bone so i can stand up for myself. I primarily work out at home since i am too shy to be around people in a gym. I currently follow people on youtube as a source of inspiration and be an invisible best friend/ supporter of them since i am shy on speaking up.
In this past year I have become tired of saying no to trying new things and decided it was time to take a step out of my security bubble and start experiencing what the world has to offer.
With this new found passion I want to try out everything that crosses my path whether it be food or non edible products. I love to share all products that cross my path with my co-workers, friends, family and then share our experiences with you.
Most recent info about me:
5 months ago (March 2015) i slipped a disk that pinched a nerve, I had injured myself using an hip abduction machine at the gym at my work. I was pretty much being a stereotypical bride-to-be trying to get in best physical shape. I hurt myself so badly 1 week before the wedding, i sought out as many doctors as i could so i could walk normal. I was bent over, limping, and doing my best to keep a smile on my face even though i was in constant pain (it was not a pretty site.)
Luckily i was able to find an amazing doctor who provided me with some easy stretches and movements that instantly relieved my pain that saved my wedding. During my recovery time i restricted my calorie intake since i was completely sedentary to where i dropped down to 114lbs.
In my state of mind at the time i thought that dropping down to 114 was great but i knew that i had lost all the progress i had made. I was losing muscle. Since i have been cleared to incorporating very low impact exercise; i quickly regained weight which put me in a head spin. It takes a lot of control for me to not freak out about the weight gain.
As of August 15th i had gained 6 pounds while sticking to my macros. Logically I knew that i should not be gaining any weight based off my macros, but i waited it out and kept pushing. While gaining the weight i have regained the strength and stamina that i had lost. I also went on a 3 week diet break to let my body heal more since it has been on a calorie deficit for so many years,
As of August 22nd (6 months since i had injured myself) the scale has started to go down again, which made me smile. Though the new goal is to stop focusing on the number on the scale and focus on enjoying life more.
As of December 10th I have been reverse dieting for 9 weeks and keeping track of my progress and sources of the information that i used in order to create my own plan. (Full post soon to come.)
So best thing i can advise anyone is to never give up and keep pushing!
If you are interested in learning more about IIFYM please visit iifym.com it is extremely helpful.
If you have any questions you can contact me at firstname.lastname@example.org
PS – In the spirit of breaking free from my shyness this is what i look like.